Am I avoiding other things that need to be done? Yes. Mostly because they make noise and I have a sweet angel sleeping in my great room. But I wanted to say a few things...
I battle depression. A condition I have passed along to Teen Boy and that we've been battling together for the last 6 weeks. He is in such a better place now, but I still carry the guilt that I didn't recognize the symptoms for what they were and not teenager-itis. I know I need to let that go and I am hoping through writing, I will learn to let that go. I felt like I'd been keeping a secret from you and I needed to get to a place where I could share. I think that is some of what yesterday's black mood was about. I don't enjoy a dark mood, but I took the opportunity to share with Teen Boy that most days are just fabulous. But a dark day comes around every once in a while... the key is to get up the next day and plug forward in a better place.
Happy place #1: Today, my angels and I headed out on a walk to have lunch in the lunch room at LRHB's school. So great! He was really excited to see us. Of course, I am still getting back into the swing of going places with a diaper-wearing child. And I didn't bring a diaper bag... I brought a cooler full of lunch food! And she had a poopy. So I cleaned her up in the bathroom and thought, we'll just go without a diaper. Which worked until right after lunch. Thankfully, all of the LRHB's classmates had gone and it was just me and the angels! And it was just a little. I loaded her back in the wagon and off we set for home! Late for preschool, don't bring a diaper bag when I go out, good golly I am lousy at some of my job. I am not lousy at lovin' the small people and snuggling up for story time or teaching how to count spaces on a board game board.
Happy place #2: College Boy landed the second part-time job that he wanted and it will have more hours than he thought! Yes, that happened yesterday, but I forgot to celebrate!
Happy place #3: I have lost 7.1 pounds in the last 19 days. I feel good!
Happy place #4: I am going out tomorrow night to play with friends!