I've done it. I've made some real changes to live in the moment. Let's be honest, right behind hanging out with my kids, I love to read. So many books, so little time! But, right now, this is about the kids.
Over the summer, I was reading my blogs. I think I may have even been tearing up because of something sad that I'd read. LRHB wanted my attention. I said I was busy. "Whatcha doin?" he wanted to know. I replied that I was reading a friend's blog. Of course he wanted to know if he knew them. "Well, no, actually I don't know them either, except through their blog." Oh. And he wandered off. Thankfully, I could finish my reading.
Upon reflection of this conversation, in fact MUCH reflection, I've pretty much stopped reading my blogs. Yes, I feel awful for the woman that lost her little boy that lives across the country. But I also feel awful for the lady around the corner that lost her son the same month. Should I not be giving more time to the sad mommy I know quite well than I am giving to the woman I've never met. By her own words she is surrounded by wonderful people. Should I give more time to the other mother across the country that has lost her son? My Sweet LM lost her daughter and we struggle to find time to be together; I should be getting my ducks in a row at home so I can run away with her. There is a blog I follow about a mom that is so devout that really each time I read her words I commit a sin, I COVET my neighbor's religious devotions. Seriously, that time would be better spent in PRAYER.
So Resolution #40 is GIVE UP A TIME SUCKING BAD HABIT